Madhumita got ready for the meeting in evening. She dressed in bottle green kurta with a beige trouser, paired with beige block heels and pearl earrings. She left her hairs untied. She complimented her look with kajal and Mauve Bliss shade of lip primer.
She reached the venue on time. She looked all around. She did not see any guy who is single and waiting there. She took a table for two and instructed the attendant “I am waiting for someone”.
She took her seat facing away from entry. She was very much nervous regarding her meeting someone who is a stranger that too to decide about marriage ‘what I am doing. I don’t even know him and I am meeting to decide about marriage…Isn’t this bullshit’ She was convincing herself ‘bullshit was that you did in college. Even after knowing those men for months together, you fell prey to their malicious intentions. Now be calm, smile a bit and be ready for this meeting. Every thing will be fine’
She heard a voice “Madhumita”.
It was Mohit’s voice. She turned around and stood up in a jolt. “Hi…Mohit. What are you doing here?”
Mohit seemed confused and raised his shoulders asking ‘why, what happened’
Madhu hurried towards him “I am sorry, I should have told you this before. I am waiting here for someone and I think you should leave”
“What?” Mohit tried to hold her hands.
Madhu immediately withdrew her hands out of discomfort. Her eyes fixed at entry “Look, I am waiting here for a man….. advised by my parents….. for marriage… ” Her gaze down towards her feet. “He can come anytime. I am sorry, I can not go for love marriage” Her eyes moved again towards the entry and her face drenched with sweat. “Please you leave now, I will tell you every thing in detail later” she pleaded.
“Who is he” asked Mohit raising his left eyebrow.
“I don’t know. I don’t even care”
“His name?” Mohit asked again.
“I told na, I don’t know”
“You did not see his pic?”
“No. I don’t want to. My answer is already yes. Its just a formality”
“Why…you don’t want to know whom you are meeting” asked Mohit out of surprise. “How will you recognize him “
“He has my pic and details. He will recognize me, that is enough. He may come any time. Please go. I don’t want any complications. I will call you later, promise”
“Ok. Do call me. And at least have a look at the pic of that lucky guy”
“Ok. After you leave, I will “
Mohit left the restaurant. Madhu felt relieved and sighed and took her seat again. She opened her handbag. Wiped all the sweat from face and did apply some compact and looked in hand mirror. Her mobile rang “Madhu , did you reach” It was her mother.
“Did he come”
“send me the pic how are you looking now”
“just send me your selfie and best of luck”
Madhu clicked a selfie and shared with her mother. She turned on her data connection. There were lot of notifications.
She checked her whatsapp. There were many notifications. She opened her fathers chat head. She was awestruck to look the details of boy and his pic. It was none other than Mohit. She stood up and looked back towards the entry. Mohit was not visible. She ran towards the entry to search him outside. Mohit was standing outside, probably waiting for her only. Mohit had a smile on his face. Madhu raised her mobile screen towards him showing his pic. She raised her other hand in air with a gesture of what and a peaceful face. She invited him to come and join her.
Natasha asked “but you said you are single, then what happened”
Madhu smiled and replied “My love life is cursed I guess. May be that is the lacuna of my life”
“Did Mohit slept with you after this and then he denied for marriage?” asked Natasha
“no….He is a good guy. But this time issue was different”
“What else? You said you would marry anyone as per your parents wish. He was your parents selection…… His dad said that if both of you are ready, he is OK. Both of you were ready…. Ab kya ch#ti#apa hua fir” Natasha was looking tense.
Madhu burst into laughter ” He is no longer my parents choice”
“Why?” Natasha was confused.
“Actually his package is less than mine. Earlier my parents thought that he is a doctor. Then they got to know he is earning 1.5 lakh per month. So, according to them, if wife is earning more, marriage will not be successful and they are confused. So most probably, its 90 percent no from their side. Rest 10 percent depends on our horoscope matching. They will go to guruji next week to seek his advice on our horoscope. As far as I know my parents, they want a match earning more than me”
“Mohit knows this?”
“Yes.. he is aware of all the developments. Even his parents have the same concern. Husband should be earning more than wife, otherwise marriage is bound to be broken” sighed Madhu.
“what’s your say on it?” asked Natasha
“I have nothing to say. I am neutral” sighed again and took a cushion to hold.
“If that’s the case, then Aarav is a good option dear” suggested Natasha. She continued “He earns more than you”
“Natasha please” stared Madhu.
“To be honest, if there are so many ifs and buts, you will remain single darling. Because its not easy to find a man of your community…. earning more than you and…. not having a girlfriend ….and waiting for his parents to find you as his partner” laughed Natasha throwing a cushion on Madhu.
“I don’t care. Whenever my marriage is destined, it will happen” replied Madhumita with a sigh and they both went to sleep.
Aarav came to their room with coffee for all three.
“Good morning lovely ladies, coffee for you” he greeted them.
“Good morning Aarav. Why did you bring coffee” asked Natasha.
“I wanted to have it with you two to make my morning special” replied Aarav with a smile. Natasha laughed “really, or its because of Madhu”. They had coffee together. They decided for their days plan. It was again a shopping day, apparels for Aarav, for which Vishal would also join. Then accessories for girls.
After breakfast, they got ready. Vishal came at around 11 am in morning to pick them up. Vishal and Natasha took the front seats. Madhu and Aarav had to take back seats.
They reached the Mall. They went first to Men’s Showroom. Vishal looked for Sherwani and all 3 helped him to select one. Now, Aarav was looking for his suit. Natasha said “You also go for Sherwani Aarav”. He looked confused. “No, It will be too heavy, what do you say Madhu”
“I think you should go for kurta types ” Madhu looked at the section having traditional attires .
“yaa, I also think so. Dhoti Kurta” Aarav was excited to hear that Madhu has an opinion for him.
They went to the section. On the way Madhu whispered in Natasha’s ears “I was saying for Kurta pyjama and jacket, not Dhoti Kurta”
Natasha replied “That means you care for him” and smiled. Madhu looked at Natasha with anger on her face “Don’t push everything in one direction”
Aarav tried some Dhoti Kurta sets , but no one approved. Then Natasha suggested “why don’t you try kurta with pyjama and jackets”
“really… Do you think so?” replied Aarav as he wanted to buy Dhoti Kurta considering it as choice of Madhu.
Natasha looked at Madhu “what do you suggest Madhu?”
“Yaa, he can give it a try” Madhu replied with an ignorant attitude.
“Ohh !! Sure why not?” Aarav now was focused on that section.
“Madhu why don’t you help him in selection ” suggested Natasha ” He is waiting to buy your choice” Natasha and Vishal laughed.
Madhu short listed few sets and Aarav tried them. Finally two sets were selected. One for sangeet and one for marriage ceremony. Madhu also bought one more set. It was Maroon colored silk kurta with Maroon Pyjama and Off White jacket. Aarav was happy as he thought that he is the one for whom Madhu did buy.
Vishal suggested “Its Sunday today, Natasha what about the last movie date before getting married”
Natasha “Yaa , sure. But I don’t want a group. It should look like a date” winked Natasha
“What do you mean” asked Aarav.
“You want Madhu as your life partner, but you are so dumb. I doubt she will say yes to you” Natasha whispered to Aarav.
“Did not you notice, she bought kurta set for me” Aarav did sound excited.
“you are really a dumb. Seriously you did not deserve her” Natasha replied “It was not for you”
“What do you mean? ….It was not of Vishal’s size. Yes I admit I am not as smart as she is. That’s why I want her…She will take care of me” Aarav shied.
Meanwhile, Vishal came with tickets. “Look Madhu, its our last movie date before marriage. I hope you understand. You have to bear with Aarav” Vishal requested.
“OK…No problem” replied Madhu “you people enjoy”.
“ohhh….Now I understood” Aarav looked with a smile at Natasha “we will not disturb you”
In theatre , Aarav could not resist and asked “For whom did you buy that kurta?”
“Why do you think I will tell you” replied Madhu sipping her cold coffee.
“We are on a movie date”
“A forced movie date”
Aarav tried to hold her left hand “Madhu , I really love you. What I did was my biggest mistake and..”
Madhu interrupted “Lets not waste our movie ” and withdrew her hand.
Madhu was again chatting when Natasha entered the room. “Apne aashik ke sath lagi padi hai…. ek bechara tera aashik yaha tere piche hai” giggled Natasha.
“Shut up” Madhu laughed
“Chatting with Mohit?” asked Natasha
“Yes. Told him about today”
“What? your movie date with Aarav?” asked Natasha
“No ways. It was not a date. It was a forced date” Madhu replied.
“OK, tell him that you went on a forced movie date with your ex boy friend” Natasha looked at Madhu with a naughty smile.
“Are you mad. I did not tell him anything about my past, neither did I ask him about his past” Madhu replied
“Why?” asked Natasha. Madhu kept quiet. Natasha continued “Because you are worried that he may react adversely and may say you good bye like others did”
“No…. he is only my friend”
“Then, whats the problem with Aarav. He is suitable for you…..loves you… earns well…..What else you want?”
“Actually, I did not tell Mohit about my past because I have left it behind. I have moved on. So, if anything does not keep significance in my life, why should I keep on discussing it…Natasha, its more than 3 years now. Moreover i don’t know whether he is my future or not” replied Madhu.
“Madhu, may I suggest you one thing” Natasha asked.
“You and Aarav had very good understanding and because of circumstances misunderstandings did happen. You also did not tell him about Rohit at that time. May be if you would have told him about Rohit, circumstances would have been different” Natasha kept her view.
“Hmm, may be”
“You were also wrong to hide details. You were in a relationship with him. Jealousy do happen. Aarav was also going through a tough phase due to his father” Natasha continued.
“Why don’t you give him another chance. When he came to know the truth, even after so many years, he has the same feelings for you. He admitted he was wrong. That means , your love means more to him than his ego”
“Hmm. Its difficult Natasha”
“But Its not impossible”
“Actually, I have started liking Mohit. He is my present and may be we get married soon”
“you said, parents are not ready”
“Yaa, but he is trying. I wish he changes their minds. I mean such a stupid reason it is. He is a Doctor. Still our parents think that his earning less than mine will create problem later in life. He will also grow professionally with time”
“What efforts you are making to make this understand to your parents”
“Why will I take efforts…I mean… I will marry anyone they say”
“That means, if they say marry Aarav, you will?”
“Why will they say marry Aarav”
“Suppose they say”
“May be yes” Madhu replied after giving a thought.
“ok…. I will tell him to go and meet your parents” Natasha laughed.
“no..please… ” Madhu requested Natasha.
“You know what Madhu, you are confused. You still love Aarav, but now your ego is not allowing you to accept him. Your ego is also not allowing you to convince your parents for Mohit. Because you are confused”
“Good night. Let me sleep and you also take rest ” Madhu tried to escape the conversation.
Madhu got up early and had tea in dinning area. She got ready to work from home. She took her laptop and was seated in Natasha’s room. At around 11 am , Vishal’s family came to discuss about the arrangements. Vishal’s cousin came to Natasha’s room for relaxation. Madhu was getting disturbed due to their chit chats. Madhu asked Natasha “Is there some other room available, I am getting disturbed”
“Yaa, go upstairs then on left “
Madhu took her laptop and went to the said room. She started working there peacefully. After around 15 minutes, the door of bathroom opened and Aarav came into the room in his boxers. He was surprised to see Madhu “Hi….Madhu, ….you here”
“Oh!!….I am really sorry. Vishal’s cousin were in Natasha’s room and I am working from home today… So Natasha told me about this room. I was not aware that you are staying here…..I am really sorry…” She was shocked to see Aarav in only boxers and turned her gaze after having a look at him from head to toe.
“Its Ok you can work from here. I will not disturb you”
“You wear something …please” said Madhu
“I am already wearing Madhu….”
“Please wear shirt as well…”
“Ohh… Does it matter to you that I am not wearing anything. Madhu I work as fashion photographer. Models wear revealing and sensuous attires… I never feel anything for them….I once felt that fire within me to just fu#k only with one of my model…..” Aarav went close to Madhu taking his mouth near her left ear and completed his sentence “That was you,….do you remember…that rainy day” Aarav held her shoulders from behind.
Madhu could hear the sound of Aarav’s breath and the warmth of his body from behind. Her heart pleaded her to turn back and hug him. But her brain was very strict this time. She ignored all her feelings and did not reply to Aarav.She clenched her fists to divert her mind away. He moved his hands from her shoulders down towards her elbow and continued “Madhu, only you excites me. Your presence, even your thoughts make me hard. I have never felt this with any one else….I love you so much”
Madhu wanted to break from her minds cage to submit herself to Aarav. But her past experiences made her so strong that she did not even let her emotions escape from her face so that they could not be revealed to Aarav. She said “Aarav stop”
“Why Madhu, don’t you want me to love you. I know that you feel the same for me. Its only me who ignites that fire …that current in you”
“Aarav please stop…I am working” she said , but she did not try to get way from him.
“What if you were not working now….you would have hugged me. I know you still want to hug me and kiss me. You still love me…. that’s why even after so many years, there is no one in your life. You still cherish our moments of togetherness Madhu. You still live with them. Accept it that you love me. ” Aarav put his lips on her cheek holding at her arms tightly.
“It’s not so. You are my past and nothing else. I don’t feel anything for you” replied Madhu with very low volume.
“Then why did you ask me to wear shirt… because seeing me like this is making you horny down there Madhu” Aarav inhaled a deep breath near her neck. and put a kiss there “I still remember you fragrance Madhu”
“Aarav please stop” Madhu did say to stop but she did not move her body away from him.
“Let it happen Madhu. Please be mine…. You also want this… ” Aarav moved his hands from her arms towards her abdomen to hold her from behind and kissed her neck.
Madhu was about to surrender to her heart but she received a call from Mohit. She came to her senses and got relieved from the arms of Aarav to receive the call.
“Hi” Madhu took the call.
“”Hello Madhu, how are you” Mohit on other side.
“Me fine, you say”
“I got the call letter just now for fellowship in Singapore “
“Wow !! congratulations… “
“I will have to join next week”
“ohh! When are you leaving”
“This Sunday evening”
“Actually, after this fellowship, I will have good opportunities as I will be specialized in cosmetology”
“May be our parents will understand and we may get their approval”
“Its 1 year fellowship?”
“I want to meet you before you leave….but I don’t know how” Madhu was happy to hear about his selection but was upset as it will be one years separation.
“Madhu I miss you a lot….”
“me too Mohit”
“I love you Madhu”
“hmm… ok call you later, I am little busy now, I am working from home this week. Miss you” She disconnected the call. Aarav heard everything what Madhu said, but he was unaware about the talks on receiver end. As soon as the call was disconnected, Aarav held the left wrist of Madhu tightly “who is this?”
Madhu stared at him “Who?”
“Who was on call?”
“Mohit” replied Madhu trying to loosen his grip, but in vain. Aarav pulled her towards him “Is he your boy friend”
“No” Madhu was feeling discomfort.
“Is he your fu#king partner, do you sleep with him ?” Aarav asked in rage and his face was red.
“Aarav, leave my hand. Please” She pulled her hand and went back to take her seat.
“You lied to me..You have boy friend” Aarav shouted at her.
“Keep your mouth shut Aarav. I am not answerable to you. Please leave me alone, I have a lot of work to do”
Aarav did wear his t shirt and left the room out of rage. Madhu was thankful to her brain not to let herself submit in Aarav’s arms in that weak moment. ‘look, I was telling you. He is still the same. You thought of giving him another chance, stupid girl’
‘Agree, I was wrong. I really felt weak when he was making love to me’
‘It was not love you stupid, it was pure lust’
‘But how would I differentiate between love and lust, I thought he did change and loves me’
‘just remember one thing Madhu, all men are same. Never ever be weak in front of them. They will Fu@k you and then allege that you are a slut’
Natasha enetred the room. Madhu was chatting. “Always in your mobile. If he is so important let him be part of your life”
“He is going to Singapore this Sunday, for one year” Madhu sighed.
“Good, let Aarav come in your life”
“No ways. Do you know what he did to me today”
“First he tried to fu#k me and then when I did not agree, he did hurt me” Madhu complained and told every thing that happened. Natasha replied “Look, let me make it clear. It was not that you did resist. You were also willing for same. And second, that Aarav did react out of jealous. He loves you and when he found that there is some other man in your life, it was his obvious reaction”
“He still don’t trust me”
“Why do you think, he will trust you. Are you committed to him. Did you accept your love for him. He did apologize , he is trying since 3 days. You are neither denying him nor accepting him”
“I did deny him”
“No, you did not. When he was trying to come close to you in room today, you should have got up and immediately would have said no. But you allowed him come close to you. Touch you, kiss you” Madhu was only listening. Natasha continued “You are also playing with emotions of Mohit. If you like him, your families are in contact with each other, you can convince your parents. But no, you are only enjoying the attention of two men that too simultaneously. You were not like this Madhu. If you ask me, Both Mohit and Aarav are good for you. Now you have to decide who will be your man”
Madhu kept listening. She kept mum. But she was having a battle in her mind with herself ‘look I was telling you, talk to mom and tell them that you want to marry Mohit’
‘no, you never wanted to marry him. I never stopped you from getting married to Mohit. I just warned you to keep distance from him before marriage’
‘Whatever happened in past with Aarav, somewhere it was my fault also’
‘Now Why are you looking in past. Today also I stopped you from getting close to him. Thanks to call of Mohit, otherwise you would have submitted yourself to him and later would have blamed me’
‘I don’t know what to do . Am I really selfish?… Am I really playing with the emotions of Aarav and Mohit?… I never felt so confused…. Yes I still love Aarav, he is in my mind. Now that its clear that it was misunderstanding… Why you don’t want me accept my love’
‘I am not allowing you.. What rubbish. I only stop you from going to bed with these men. If you really feel love, go ahead. Marry him’
‘I don’t know what to do…. He is too childish. He reacts to minor things. But I love him.. I like Mohit also. He is too gentle and really cares for me’
‘Now see… You are confused and blames me always. I never stop you from marrying a man… Its actually you who is enjoying the attention now which is satisfying your ego… Natasha is right’
‘shut up…. now I will never listen to you and will do what is right for me and will take the decision soon’
Madhumita did not sleep the whole night. She was thinking through out. Early morning, she did text to Mohit and also called her mother.
What did Madhu decide?….Was she really selfish at this phase of life?… Will she be able to decide who will be her life partner?… We will see in next chapter.. Till then, lets just think, in which phase of our life we were confused regarding what is right and wrong…. Being selfish is some times good as we think what’s good for us… Keeping ourselves at focus…. Keep thinking… Lots of wishes to my readers 😀